As our family prepares for Christmas, one of the many traditions we have is to sing Christmas music together, listen to Christmas CD’s, and watch Christmas movies and theatre performances.
Favorites of ours are Jimmy Buffets’ Christmas Island album, Harry Connick Jr. Christmas, and a few generational CD’s that have classics by Bing Crosby and Frank Sinatra. Something about Christmas music lifts us up, makes us feel more — feel happy and bright — even on the darkest days. In the Pacific Northwest, it can get pretty dark (around 4pm these days!). Christmas lights and music can make everything just seem lighter!
This is a season that can also distract you from the task at hand — which of course for me should be writing. As we wrapped up NaNoWriMo in November, we took a little break, but December is quickly becoming almost-Christmas to which I say, “WAIT!”
Of course, time waits for no one. So I write. I should be writing Christmas cards, but I get snippets out that have been bottled up inside for months. As I continue to write about my diagnosis and surgery, I realize that there is so much more to tell. I don’t know if anyone outside of my family and circle of friends will be interested in reading it, but I feel like the story is burning within me — bursting to get out. The more I write, the freer I feel.
I love getting the words down on paper. Unfortunately, these days my hands cramp or fingers fall asleep — I realize I should be typing instead of my freeing handwriting, but I continue until the pain forces my submission. I write my fluid, loopy cursive, until a stream of thought takes over and then the writing becomes very choppy and jagged. It’s as if getting out the thoughts will allow me to move forward in my life. So I write.
What makes you lighter? Burns inside of you and yearns to be free?
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